A young girl stands on the terrace of a house, sits on a parapet wall and draws a scene in the book that looks far away.She got up and left, putting a diary on top of the drawings which was the diary she was using.Pages in that diary open to the air
IN THAT DAIRY.
She wrote ,That place I have been looking at since I was a kid has been bothering me a lot lately . The idea of having to get away from where you are is natural, but even that distance can be seen as far as the eye can see.The mind that oscillates so much that it has to wear that distance.
She came back, stopped the turning pages, and took the books away. One day,she sits down and writes something …while she writes continuously , reads her diary, remembering her past memories for writing . She stops at one page in that page she wrote ‘The distant hills, the trees, the greenery, the people between them, the bonds between them, finally the PEACE there is soo wonderfull’ , I talked like this at home, but my parents told me not to have such crazy ideas, just to get a good education and a job and make money.I’m depressed but still I have a hope on my dream life .
As she read the diary, she came across a page written with a red pen – ‘Big commotion in the house today , Because I made the effort to go there by myself singly , but trust me my dear diary I just went to see a little part , andi thought I would return on time but situation crises made my situation bad.
The page turned – ‘Today I saw a lovely scene of the people who live in those hills are going home to work together and have no worries about tomorrow on their faces,No worries about yesterday, all that was on their faces was just loving man to man, finding well-being, being accompanied in adversity ,There is so much happiness, there is so much serenity, awesome, I want that piece, I want that life.Why I feel that way is that the world I am looking at is full of runaways, not even having time to at least see the man next door Leaving the family and living selfishly, I do not know why I do not like, I think I do not belong to this society so I want to go there’.
Next page seems to be a college gossips.she turned those pages fastly because she don’t have any friends , any memories ,she used to sit lonely from her childhood.
Next page -‘ I am a type of a prisoner who cannot even reach such a close destination.If the beautiful world in front of your eyes says welcome to you, if you are not able to accept the invitation , you may going to know the suffer and pain of it . A girl of my age mostly has to think about clothes,
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jewelry, men… but I’m looking for a piece.
Finally the torn page was here ,she draws that image in a college competition and luckily she got a prize for that .she was over excited on that day because everytime she talks about that place with his father.He refuses her words and depressed her .so she roved that her words and thoughts are not soo dumb.with that atmost excitement she draw that picture everywhere in her house .Her parents are so much worried and punishes her first , after that they take her to the doctor .
While returning from the doctor , she is stucked in a traffic sits back in a car ,and her exhausted father giving lecture to her and warning her not to repeat.Beside their car people on so much rush ,one boy on bike dashes the pedestrians and all the waiting people back to her was horning loudly , sounds screamly , there is so much chaos . All’s life is going in a hurry no one can enjoys the moment .
A bunch of papers turned in her diary ,but now with diary there is a psychologist report was there , she takes that and saw the results , remembers those odd days – on the day she went to the doctor , the doctor said that she had a schizoid personality disorder.which means just wanted to be alone and enjoys her own company ,getting hypertension and felling down when someone comes near .she screamed one day on her mother,throwing books,clothes on her father,she did so many things like this.atlast one psychiartist gets closer to her and gives sessions,on the part of sessions he know that she’s having illusions also ..to overcome this illusions he gave a task to her that is to make over a story what she have imagined.
And now that’s why I’m writing my story as like above,yes I’m that young girl,because I don’t know other
imaginations,stories…The PEACE that I literally wanted is made so much of NOICE in my life,in my heart,in my brain,in my family.sometimes what we wants in a life is a harmfullness also,now I learned that just be happy with what you have or do it and get that desire into your life whatever happens.
So by writing my story ,now I’m going to get a decision.The NOICE of that PEACE has evolved me so much.
SIGNING OFF ‘AAPEKSHA’.